Dating

So this whole new dating thing isn't that bad. I mean I know I have been single for about 1 1/2 years now but I haven't really dated anyone. Well seriously at least. I meen I have been on a few dates and talked with a couple of guys for a few months but I don't think any of them were ever serious enough to call a boyfriend.
Meeting people and guys lately hasn't been that hard for me. Which is great because it really is helping with the whole self esteem issues I have. I meen I went out with some of my girlfriends last night to the opening of a new night club in downtown Akron. I even wore a dress!! Can you believe it? Well if not take a look at my profile on myspace I have proof I had someone take a few photos...LOL. Before I left the house last night I actually felt like I looked cute! This is yet another big acomplishment for me.
The boy I have been talking to lately is Dan. I met him at a Jake Owen concert at the Dusty. Yes there is a trend here....hahahaha!! He is really sweet, a little young (21) but that doesn't matter to me, he is really tall, great looking and actually calls when he says he is going to. We were supposed to go on a real date last weekend but some things came up so today he is supposed to come pick me up so we can go on a date. That in an of itself is a big feat seeing as how he lives all the way up by Warren, and it will take him an hour just to get to my house! If he is willing to drive that far to see me then I can go out on a date with him. So wish me luck and I will blog later and let you all know how it went.

Rachel...

I am so worried about my friend Rachel. She is or hopefully was in this relationship with this older guy. First off he has two girls that he doesn't have custody of and he doesn't see them that often, second he lost his drivers license from a D.U.I and he works at a bar, Third (and I just found this out) that he has a previous felony for domestic violence. Needless to say he isn't good for her. She deserves so much better, and I am trying to convice her that she can do much better than him. I mean check this out he texted me about 2 months ago because he memorized my phone number when I told it to Rachel. Then he sends me an email with his cell # asking me to give him a call sometime. And just recently they got into this huge fight where he started shaking her, yanking on her arm and yes even hit her in the face. Then after all that he had the nerve to call the police on her and tell them that she was hitting him and out of control. I just hope that she can get away like I did. Her situation does seem a little worse off than mine but not by far. I am trying to be to her what Delilah was to me. She was an inspiration and eye opener and never gave up on me no matter how many times I kept running back to Ted. She just kept reassuring me that I deserved better and that the situation there wasn't a good one. One of the reasons I eventually started listening to her was because she had gone through a similar situation I did, and she knew exactly what I was going through and didn't have to say "I know what your going through" with a puzzled look on her face. I am trying to be there for Rachel and hopes that when she has no one else to turn to that I will be there for her the way Delilah was for me. (thanks Delilah by the way, what you did for me and continue to do for me is so great that I don't think I show my appreciation enough)
And I did tell her to document anything that he does to her so if she has to file a restraining order it will be much easier, and I also told her she needed to press charges on him for putting his hands on her. I just hope she listens soon before it is too late.

This describes how I feel now...

Artist/Band: Sugarland
Lyrics for Song: Settlin'
Lyrics for Album: Enjoy The Ride
Fifteen minutes left to throw me together
For Mr. Right Now, not Mr. Forever
Don't know why I even try when I know how it ends
Lookin' like another, "Maybe we can be friends.
"I've been leaving it up to fate
It's my life so it's mine to make
Chorus:I ain't settlin'
For just getting by
I've had enough so-so
For the rest of my life
Tired of shooting too low
So raise the bar high
"Just enough," ain't enough this time
I ain't settlin' for anything less than everything
With some good red wine
And my brand new shoes
Gonna dance a blue streak around my living room
Take a chance on love, and try how it feels
With my heart wide open
Yeah, you know I will
Find what it means to be the girl
Who changed her mind
And changed the world
Repeat chorus
I ain't settlin'
For just getting by
I've had enough so-so
For the rest of my life
Tired of shooting too low
So raise the bar high
"Just enough," ain't enough this time
I ain't settlin'
For just getting by
I've had enough so-so
For the rest of my life
Tired of shooting too low
So raise the bar high
I ain't settlin'
No, no, no, no, no, no
So raise the bar high, high


So what do ya think???

Relay for Life

I wasn't sure at the time I said what I was getting myself into. Delilah asked me if I wanted to go to this thing for relay for life, the only thing I knew about it was that there was bingo and a silent auction. When we got there, there were tons of people and they just kept coming. The tables were so close together which wasn't so bad for me but I am not pregnant...but Delilah is and I felt so bad seeing her try to squeeze through those little spaces. There were about 200 baskets that were being auctioned off, and then there was bingo, a chinese auction, and then even a live auction. It was crazy we were there until after 10pm! I guess they raised tons of money though.
It was also a great time because I got to hang out with people I haven't seen in awhile. I got to see Becca, Rixey, Delilah, Liz, Jackie, and Hanz. I have different groups of friends and I don't get to hang out with this group very often. I bid on this awesome basket that Delilah made in her pottery class, it looks like a basket, weaved and all it is really heavy too. It had bread mix, some all natural peanut butter, and jelly and a really nice bread knife. I am going to even convice her to make me another one because I like it so much. I have also been seriously contemplating going to the class myself. I haven't made anything from clay since high school but I love doing things with my hands and loved doing that back then, so it could be good. I meen then I could finally maybe start selling some of my stuff and if all else fails, then I could just continue to give away my stuff which isn't so bad either.

Why try

So now I know...A wise man once said..."time will tell". Well it did, I had my friend hillbilly over the other day and we watched movies and hung out. All was well I thought to myself. So I tried to call him later that week because we had plans to go to the movies. Only problem was his cell phone wasn't on or it was having problems. So I called his home phone and left a message. He didn't call...he is a busy man and all with all his sports and everything. So then I went to the Dusty on Wednesday with a friend of mine and guess who was there...oh yeah and he made it a point to come over and say hello and even give me a big hug. But then he pretty much ignored me the whole time, I did try to make an effort by going up to him and talking to him, and he was friendly and all but didn't try to return the favor by approaching me. So I said no big deal and hung out, danced the night away and had a great time with my friends. Later that week I sent him an email asking if he still wanted to go to the movies, with no response. Then I got some Indians tickets and called his house phone to see if he wanted to go, again to my surprise no answer and no call back.
I did however still have a great weekend. On friday I went to the Indians game with my friend Renee and then we went to the Indians game and of course they lost. Then we went to a bar in Akron and met up with a few of her friends and hung out. Then I got to go riding on Saturday with a few of my friends. I went home afterward and then got showered and dressed up to go to the Jake Owen Concert at the Dusty!! And boy was it fun!!! I went with Rachel and we had a great time. I even got my picture taken with him.
So the moral of the story is that character will eventually show itself from time to time. This is a game of life and I am still learning what the rules of the game are and how it is played.

He likes me...he likes me not???

So let me know what you think...I need a non interested person to tell me what the heck is going on here. That hillbilly guy I am interested in is so great. He makes me laugh, he is cute, he listens to me, we can chat for hours about nothing and everything all at once. Well he went away on a trip for two weeks and was supposed to arrive some time today. Which I was thinking great because I sort of miss him ya know? Well he texts me last night and tells me he is on his back to Ohio and wanted to know if I wanted to hang out with him last night. I was shocked, I mean when you are away for two weeks and on the road for a long time the only thing I can think about is my bed and doing nothing. But he wanted to see me. So he came over last night and we hung out for a few hours. I asked him if he missed me since he wanted to see me so soon, and he said he did. So what should I be thinking about this whole thing??
I should mention that the past few relationships he has had have not been good. The girls he was with cheated on him and with his friends...so he has been heart broken, and he doesn't trust women. So I think he is hesitant to start liking a girl again. UGH!! I just wish all of this was easier.
I can tell you this when we are together I don't think about anything else, I just enjoy everything when he is around.

Happy

I had one of the BEST weekends ever...I met so many new and great people. On Friday I went out with a friend of mine and met this really nice guy named Pat. We have talked a few times since that night too, and he seems nice. Then on Saturday I went over to my best bud Jen's house and met up with Renee, Tim, Deanna, and of course Jen. We all traveled all the way to Canton to eat at a place called Carrabbas-it is an Italian restaurant and it is really good. I heard that people even wait up to 3 hours to eat there, I know heres a thought they should open another restaurant....duh? Then after that we all had plans to go bowling then go to the bar, except Renee was going to explode because she finished a diet that day and ate for like 13 grown men and needless to say her stomach is still trying to catch up and Jen had a headache. We decided to stay in and talk and hang out. And oh boy did we talk....about a lot of strange and mysterious things to me. And to save all your stomachs I will not mention them...LOL. I didn't even go home until 3:30am!!! I woke up bright and early the next day, yeah I know what's wrong with me...I wasn't even tired. I sewed all day and have a quilt almost finished for T.J, I am making him a "Cars" quilt, themed like the movie "Cars".
Then I went to my parents house to eat dinner, and it was great because it was just myself, dad, mom, my brother and his friend. Very small but still great home made food, which when you are single and live by yourself you cherish.
After that my friend Rachel came over and we chatted on the internet for about an hour and then we left and met a bunch of people up at Frank's place for an adult easter egg hunt, thats right you read it...adult easter egg hunt, it was pretty funny to watch too. I was up there for a couple of hours then.....I saw this awesomely cute tall guy there and became completely shy, but my friends helped me out of that one. They called him over to the table and introduced themselves and his name was Nick. I was so embarrased! I then bought him a drink and had it sent to his table and he smiled and said "thanks". I thought well before I leave I will go over and give him my #, what the hell right?? I did, and he said thanks again and he put it in his wallet, so hopefully I will be hearing from him soon.?? Who knows??
A friend of mine and me went to this guys house to hang out for a couple of hours. I met this guy there Steve, he was also great, and a sk8er boy too!! He was always laughing or smiling and I would like to hang out with him again soon. You just can't be in a bad mood around this guy!!

I also have good news or is it you tell me...that guy I blogged about before....we will call him Hillbilly for now. He and I are going on an actual date, well at least that is what I think it is, and just for shits and giggles I am paying for the first one and he is paying for the next one, I don't know I just like to mix it up a little..again why not?? And he has been away for about 2 weeks and I actually miss him...??? I am a little confused about that too, for example am I falling for this guy or what?? Well I wont bore you any longer...hope you had fun reading about my exciting and very productive weekend.

Thank you come again!!

Pink-Who Knew??

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
Uh huh
That's rightI took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh
That's right
If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong
I know betterCause you said foreverAnd ever
Who knew
Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh noNo no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything
When someone said count your blessings now
For they're long goneI guess
I just didn't know howI was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said foreverAnd ever
Who knew
Yeah yeahI'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until weUntil we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened
If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kissI'll cherishUntil we meet again
And time makes
It harderI wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darlingWho knewMy darlingMy darling
Who knewMy darlingI miss you
My darlingWho knewWho knew

Guess What???

Well nothing of course, just stopping by to read my blog since no one else does....LOL

Looking for a Date...

Ok so I stole the idea for the title but it is a little different, and yes maybe even desperate. But we are all at some point. So I have been on a few dates since I have been single but nothing to shoot fireworks off about. And I am tired of meeting people at bad places if you know what I mean. So if anyone knows of any single people around the same age as me send them my way. But hopefully you all will choose well....LOL

Ideas??

Lately I have been wanting to blog more but I can't think of many things to blog about. So this blog post is all about getting different ideas to post about. I guess the things that I have been blogging about haven't been getting much attention, so let the audience decide what they find interesting, what they want to know about me, the questions they want to ask, or what they want to know about my life or the way I think. Please leave a comment and let me know. Thanks.