White Water Rafting Anyone?

I am going on another white water rafting trip in October. The exact dates are from Oct. 19- Oct 21. If you would like to go please comment here or go to my myspace myspace.com/justiene_ohio and leave me a message. It will cost approx. $200.00 which will cover camping on Friday night, breakfast at camp on Saturday, rafting the Lower New River on Saturday afternoon, lunch on the river, dinner back at camp Saturday night, camping saturday night and breakfast on Sunday and Rafting the Gualley on New River on Sunday afternoon. So please let me know if anyone is interested or knows anyone that would like to go.
The deposit is non refundable but we are going on Bridge day-which is the one day out of the year that people are allowed to bungee and base jump off this bride we actually raft under so it is a pretty big day. The deposit is only $50.00 and it goes toward the cost of the trip. The remainder is due Sept. 20.
It was a ton of fun last time and I would like more people to go. Can't wait to hear from all of you!!!

Who Knew??

Well I did of course... :) I always knew that my biological father had another child, a daughter to be exact but other than that I didn't know anything. Well something strange happened to me last Monday, I was at work doing what I do best...work of course. And one of the ladies there brought me this letter and she said this is sort of strange and this is what it read.....
" I am trying to determine if it's possible that you are the daughter of Jill Swagler and the Later Robert Swagler...also that you have a brother Jeremy Swagler....If in fact you are I would like to contact you..... There have been a lot of things happening......" I was almost devastated, I thought someone had died. This letter was from my biological father's mother. She hasn't even tried to contact me in over 15 years. Now out of the blue I get a letter at work??? It was really strange so I called my mom and she had no idea why she was trying to get ahold of me now either. So I called her and she gave me some news on what was going on, how things were that sort of thing. Then she surprised me with the fact that she had found my sister and had been talking to her for quit some time....
Turns out it gets ironic....She is 19 and pregnant with a baby boy. This little baby boy is actually due on Sept. 14, which is my birthday. Also she is going to school for Criminology which is what I minored in. She lives in Alabama and is going to get married next year. I have corresponded back and forth with her a few times since I have gotten her info. It is so strange to know that someone is out there and then finally talk with them.
Another thing I am going through is the fact that my father's mother now wants to get together with me and talk or catch up so to speak, and the truth is I am not sure I really want to. I feel like where the hell has she been my entire life so far??? I mean she said that she wanted to wait until we all were adults before entering our lives so it would be our decision if we wanted anything to do with her....but hello I have been an adult for almost 7 years now. And what grandmother stays away for 24 years and then wants something to do with her family? She said to me on the phone "you know I love you right?" I wanted to say actually no I don't I haven't talked to you in 15 years I don't even know you.

Some other news in my life and I will blog more about this later is that on Sunday I got back from West Vir. I went white water rafting with my friend Rachel V. and it was an awesome time. We are actually thinking about going back again in the fall when the damn is open and the water is more rough, and we are thinking about doing the Gaully which is much tougher. I will post pictures on my myspace page once I get them developed. In case you haven't visited that yet it is www.myspace.com/justiene_ohio Let me know what you think.
And as always thanks for reading!

Carpe Diem Baby!!

So it has been a couple of weeks since my last post. I was just going through a few recent posts to see if I had gotten any new comments and would like to mention that even though no one reads this except a hand full of you and thank God for you....I am very glad that I post. The reason for this is because I love to go back and read what I have wrote and see how much I have grown or how I felt at any certain time.
Myself, Rachel, Donna and another friend of Rachel's all went to see the Breaking Benjamins and 3 days Grace concert at Tower City ampatheater in Cleveland last night and that show kicked ass!! The only thing that sucked...well there are 2: 1: it was very hot in that theatre, and 2: people kept throwing those plastic beer bottles and I got hit like 4 times in the head and those things really do hurt. I also did something CRAZY and EXCITING....I CROWD SURFED!! and it was so awesome!!!!
I didn't get approved for that big loan that I wanted. I only got approved for a small amount because I have a little bit of bad credit on my credit report. So instead of getting a loan now with high interest I am going to pay off what is in negative standing on my credit report and start building more credit. Sounds like a good idea I just hope it works out. I really want my truck....like I have said before it is a small goal that I have right now and am really trying hard to work towards achieving that goal.
I am also contemplating getting a roommate...which would mean moving. I would have to get a larger place so the other person could have a room of their own too. My brother just got this job doing maintenance work for this apartment complex and he may get a killer discount on an apartment. Another plus is that the apartments are really really nice! Most of them have been completely gutted and rehabbed into new. I am not stoaked about moving in with my brother to be completely honest because he does things that I don't and we don't have the same personalities. We do mesh well together though and have lived together in the past. I am just really tired of not being able to save any sort of money on my own. In the next 3-5 years I want to own my own home. Not to sure where the guy situation will be then but hey who knows. I am a very idependent person and hate to depend on others for anything. I also hate being like a girl so to speak, I am an agressor and it is hard for me not to make the first move or take control of any situation.
I went to Canada this past weekend and had a fantastic time!! I was very well behaved too, there were a few times that I probablly drank too much but was still in control, took taxis and had fun but not too much.

YeeeeHaaaawww!!

So as you all know I do now own my very own 2007 honda 400ex! Which is exciting for me because I love to ride. And for those of you who don't know that is a 4wheeler. I got to go this weekend and it was tons of fun! I am getting so much better too just riding more often now because I have my own. I tried to conquer this huge steep hill that defeated me last time. The first time I went up it I flipped my quad on it's side, then I tried again bound and determined to defeat this monster and I hopped it right up over the trail...lol but then I just picked up my ass end of the bike and put it back on the trail and rode up. So to me that is conquered! I got to ride for about 5 1/2 hours yesterday and am definetly feeling it today, I also ran into a tree and my handlebars came back and hit me in the leg, was sort of painful but it could've been worse.
I am also focusing my time on better things than guys right now too, seeing as how all of them pretty much suck! I am applying for a loan for my truck this week and hopefully will hear back from them sometime next week and then I can officially start truck hunting. And as most of you know I am a chevy kind of girl, but the truth is they just can't compete with Ford any more. So I think I may get a Ford Ranger or a Ford F-150. I am so excited, I am also looking at new new like a 2007 or no older than a 2004 or 2005 and if they are going to be that old I will only look at something with less than 30,000 miles on it.
Also I seen that guy that stood me up on wed. when I was at the Dusty and I did a good job ignoring him and I think that he has moved on himself so I wish the best for him and his future. Also I seen the other guy who just out of the blue stopped calling me "hillbilly" for those of you who know him. I seen him just last night when I was at the Dusty again and as tempted as I was I didn't even talk to him or anything which was hard but for the best! So wish me luck this week that they approve me for a big enough loan so I can buy a truck!!

Guess Not.

so maybe he isn't good for me, considering he no called no showed for our date again. Wow I sure can pick 'em. Ninja turtle sheets, biker date with mom and pop, no show boy. I guess it may just be too much to ask to actually be able to go out on a date with a real boy/man. I feel like I am dating pupets and that I have to wait for pinochio to become real and that isn't happening anytime soon. I am just going to focus on getting my truck and riding my 4wheeler. That task is a little hard without a truck so about mid may I am going to apply for a loan and see how much I can get and then go out and buy a damn truck....baaahaaaa bitches.
I just don't want to be a bitter woman when I am only 24, and I also don't want to be a man hater. I just need a guy or two to restore my faith in men at least give me a glimmer of hope. PLEASE?

God give me strength

Give me strength to not fall for a bad someone. This guy that I have been talking to may not be the best for me, but then again he may? He just got out of this relationship with this girl and she is crazy so you all know that I can relate to that. I have been letting everything but my heart and my head do all the thinking for me lately. I want to actually fall for someone who will treat me good and show me I am worth something. I don't want to get married or fall in love just be respected and not used, adored and not just lusted. The only thing I want right now (besides my new truck) is to move on and be able to tell someone any one that I have had a boyfriend after all that mess awhile back, or to be able to say that yes I have dated someone and it was great. I know it will happen but maybe even a rebound guy would be good, I know it seems like a long time ago but I never really had anyone that has helped me forget or move on. And right now that would be nice...

Things don't go as planned

So I guess some of you are wondering how my date went...Well the truth is, it didn't. A lot of chaos happened that day so instead he is coming over this Friday and we are going to go do something. So any ideas on what we can do? I meen like I said before he is driving about an hour to get to my house so I want it to be a good date, plus he has been a little stressed out lately because of a crazy ex girlfriend, and I really know how that is. I talk to him everyday on the phone. We talk about just about anything and everything.
I did have a great week last week though. On wednesday I went to the Dusty and went dancing and that is where Dan and I had our first slow dance, and our first kiss. Then on Thursday I went down to Scorchers down in the valley with some friends for dinner. On friday a whole bunch of us got together to go to the opening of the LUX, which used to be the Posh night club. It was a ton of fun, however the floor was completely disgusting and sticky but other than that a ton of fun. Then on Saturday (the night I was supposed to go on the date) I ended up going out to a Mexican restaurant and having a great time.
So wish me luck on this date. I hope it goes well because I am starting to like this guy....