Hello, hello, Is anybody out there??

I am getting frustrated because no one is reading my blogs. I feel a little insane because this is not only talking to myself now but it is actually written out. By the way things are not in the slightest way getting better between ted and I. We cant' even carry on a conversation without arguing. Just yesterday we were talking on the phone and ended it by hanging up on each, but not before yelling and cursing. If someone could post a comment on this as well... I have a question that has been urking inside. I had a crush on this guy in highschool, who doesn't right. Anyway he goes to Akron U, and I ran into him more than a few times, so more than just coincindence it seemed like. We started talking and even met up a few times, just to hang out nothing like that. It was going really good, only problem is I was living with Ted, we weren't even together anymore. Then I don't know what came over me, the lack of places to go or the love that I feel I have for him but I stayed with him (Ted) and promised him I wouldn't talk to this other guy....which I haven't but have wanted to so badly. I guess my question is this.... should I call this other guy anyway and keep talking to him? Or should I forget all those not so coincendental meetings and great times we shared? Plus it has been a few months since we last talked and I don't even know if he is seeing someone or lives in the same place or has the same phone number??? I wouldn't even mind just being friends we just seemed to really hit it off. Someone please give me some advice....